The scariest thing about facing any barriers in life is keeping the fear bottled up inside. The best way to work through any obstacle in life is to talk about it and to know you are not alone.
That is what this blog is all about, opening up, sharing and walking the path accessibility.
It is where I was born; where I live. I am proud and would
choose no other place to call home.
Life for me has presented challenges and I often found, and
still find, solace within the lyrics and beats provided by the likes of Bryan
Adams, Tom Cochrane, Sass Jordon, Sarah McLachlan, Honeymoon Suite, The
Tragically Hip. The list is fairly extensive.
The laughter given by Michael J Fox or Jim Carry.
The talent of the CBC line-ups.
Sara Stanley in Road to Avonlea along with Anne of green
The drama given to us by Keifer in a range of twenty-four
Travelling where no man has gone before with William
The weird and interesting David Cronenberg to Margaret Atwood…
with a passion for writing, I’ll follow their lead with stories like ‘Chronicles
of a Girl’ and ‘The Soul Bound Series’…#GirlPower
Having worked backstage at Canada’s oldest professional
summer theatre, The Red Barn; an experience I’ll never forget.
From the 'Sleeping Giant' in Thunder Bay Ontario to 'The Chief'
near Whistler Vancouver
; the rolling hills, flat plans, clear lakes, and frigid winds in
Winterpeg… it is a breath of nature at its best. Niagara Falls and four seasons
in a year that can drive us nuts, keep us on our toes, and bring us together.
Iceberg sightseeing to the rocky terrains of valleys and
shorelines in Newfoundland and Labrador.
My dream of renting an RV with family and friends and going coast to coast and
exploring the in-betweens.
My last outing with my dad before he passed away, an
occasion spent doing the wave and watching our Toronto Blue Jays at Exhibition
Hockey night in Canada shared with my Opa, hooting and
hollering at the Toronto Maple Leafs while we watched the television set and he
kept score on a side of the nearest Kleenex box before cancer interfered with
Alexander, Molson and Moosehead, the times we share and have
shared toasting to friends in a basement garage, by a campfire, on a patio, and
always near a grill.
The true North, strong and free.
“Strong and free.” Not just about physical prowess or
location, but a frame of mind. Overcoming barriers and being a Survivor! My
personal life anthem from Avril Lavigne in ‘Take me Away.’
Tears; Laughter; Pride. Respect and kindness.
people, culture, heritage and diversity.
Freedom to choose and be yourself.
The Canadian “honking” goose to the flat tailed beaver to the giant
Moose; multiple winter toques to various summer sandals; lounging on a Muskoka
chair to ice-fishing Lake Simcoe.
The Olympic gold medals I’ve cheered on, though more winter than
Listening to the radio while cruising the highway,
from Toronto’s Q-107
to Calgary’s soft rock 97.7.
The Blue Bombers, Argos and Roughriders.
Viola Desmond and Terry Fox.
The historical and defining Canadian victory at Vimy Ridge.
The advanced and supersonic Avro Arrow… a model of this I proudly keep.
Harvey’s Angus burger and Swiss Chalet dipping sauce.
Double doubles at Tim’s... though I do prefer tea with
two sugars and a milk.
Crystal clears lakes, giant endless fields of trees, and
good old fashioned genuine Canadian Maple Syrup.
Being Canadian and living in this beautiful country…
of the most frightening things to me about high school, one of the things I was
most uncertain about, was the rows of lockers; rows that lined the halls up and
down on either end. There were so many and they represented so many people:
Keeners, nerds, bullies, preps, weirdoes, slackers, jocks, the
I always wondered what category I fit into.
I was never stuffed into a locker; sometimes though I’d look
in and wonder if I could escape through… like the kids and the wardrobe in that
story about the lion and the witch.
But could I really do that? Could I crawl through?
In our school days all that I wanted to do was graduate and
leave those lockers behind, to escape those hallways filled with cliques,
groups, socials. So full of people, yet feeling so empty at times… trying to
fit in wasn’t easy for me.
The locker was like a personal shrine to so many, filled
with pictures and books and anything else one desired to place inside. Anything
that made us cool. But it was only math, science, and English literature for
No stickers, no logos, no pictures ripped from magazines.
Did this say something about me??
Damn those tricky combinations! Was it six to the left three
times, four to the right twice, and nine back? Can someone give me a hacksaw to
open this damn thing? I’m supposed to be getting an education, I have to
remember my combo and try to fit in with the cool crowd?
The locker, can I climb in and avoid all of this?
I graduated years ago, but in many ways I still have a
locker with me that I carry around in my mind. I still often desire to crawl in
and through to the other side like those kids in that movie.
In some ways I suppose that is kind of what I do and why I have
become a writer, to escape the crowds in the hallways. My imagination has become part my my clique. And I am trying to cope, to come
to terms with my grown-up high school life.
On a weekday when going to work I wake up to the “Beep,
Beep” of the alarm at six-thirty am. On a day off I usually forego the alarm
but still end up rising before too long.
Regardless of going to the paying job, sitting at home
writing or spending time with the family, each day I know that I am going to
face frustration, fatigue and uncertainty. But this is no one’s fault.
So as I
stretch myself awake and sip at my tea, staring into nothing, I try to take it
To prepare for the coming activity.
I try to understand.
As I take my shower and get dressed, go to work, flip on the
TV and move through the motions that can be sometimes difficult but also rewarding and fun, I think about how in some ways my life has had to
deal with darkness like no one else, but also in other ways, less so than many
I have had challenges and barriers thrown my way.
And I remember.
Others have dealt with messes as well, in their own ways.
We move on.
These thoughts help me endure. To get through; to smile; to
dance; to laugh and to love.
I get through my day and just like it is always, I look
forward to the next.