In this crazy thing
called life that seems to quickly speed along, but also slow to a crawl at
times, I often find myself wondering about the BIG moments. Where are they?
What are they?
Are the big moments
landing a hundred and fifty K a year job? Becoming a number one best-selling
author? Finding a life-long partner in love?
I’ve been through a
few jobs, I’ve written a few books, and I have been in a few relationships.
Maybe I’m looking at
this the wrong way. Maybe they are just moments; moments to remember; moments
to cherish. Like the friend in high school who stuck by my side despite others
moving ahead. Despite my lack of…. Does it matter? Like the day I was able to
walk out of the hospital after re-learning how to use my legs and muscles
because my brain forgot what they were supposed to do.
As I take the time and
really see things, I guess that moments have happened for me already; and are
happening now; and will always be happening.
Not BIG, just moments.
BIG isn’t for me anyway.
Jobs, writing,
relationships …. Whatever, they just all happen at MY own kind of stride. The
way that works for me. Because I lead with my heart, I can’t lead with my head,
it just doesn’t work that way.
As I take the time and
really see things, I realize that those moments, for me, come at a cautious
pace. I do the things that make me feel comfortable; but no matter how many
times I may have travelled a similar path, I am uncertain. And I have come to
understand, that that is okay, because it is me.
I will forever be
testing the waters for my moments; I just need to remember to take the time,
not get caught up in the slow funk or the runaway train of life.
So whether it is a new
job, a new story to tell, a new relationship; they are all just that….new. The
past is the past. The present and future is new, different, unique.
I just need to breathe
and tell myself:
Test the waters.
Find the moments.
Keep on going.
